Irish stone wall. ...
6 years ago
I'm sleeping naked again. The pillow is my best friend. I thought i didn't have to bare it all, but now off my bed I crawl. I want it all and by all I mean everything that I'll never have. I'll never find some piece of mind but I find my mind is left in pieces. It decreases the amount of time before I quit. Everyday is a so-called "chance to do your best" but my whole life has been a mess. As I'm staring at the mirror, I can't even see a reflection and as I go one way my heart's led off into a different direction. You admit it's not my fault, then point the finger at me. You don't have t justify why you leave me, I already know that I'm ugly inside and outside. The only thing that I hide is a fucked up smile. I'm glad to see that you're doing better so I guess it was worth the while because you learn from your mistakes, while all I do is repeat. And another piece of me dies inside, every new time that we meet. I'm starting over. Sometimes I wonder why I'm even sober, I'd rather forget that I'm so hopeless and just wait for it to be over. I'm tired of work, everyday is the same routine and yes there's a difference between being honest and being mean. I guess that I'm neither, I wish I could believe her and if I really knew that she hated me it would be easier to leave her or her to leave me. Marking scars on my body. Take a trip-down memory lane in my car and call shotty. The only time that I felt like a man was weird as hell, I can't understand most of the shit that I think so I guess there's a missing link. And all I know is that I know nothing. Walking away but still chasing after something. I can't look at myself cause I'm embarrassed by my face and I almost fell down the bottom of the staircase. Is it in me or in you? Or which one of us would continue? I'm seeing your face in places that I've never even been to. The nighttime is the best time to be honest with yourself. I'd love to talk to you, but it's too bad it's bad for my health. Midnight walks don't get me rattled, I'm staring at my shadow. Envisioning my future well is my biggest battle. But once I'm done with this I can move on. Hope to look past all of the bullshit but I know I'm not that strong. It's been too long since I had a goodnight's dream, I know sometimes it seems within my reach but I've never been one to preach. Or give advice or anything I would take with a grain of salt. This is personal, and who knew could pass it off as art? Do I sound smart? I fall apart at the sound of a single tear drop. But I play it off well and tell everyone to fear-not the end. I wish I would never lose any of my friends and I hope they get the message that this song is trying to send. It's clear to see, you can't change me 'cause I'm a failure for life.
"a woman who helped raise me, a woman who sacrificed again and again for me, a woman who loves me as much as she loves anything in this world"It would have been a beautiful thing for her and him both, I'm sure, to see her Grandson become the President of The United States. Can you imagine the joy? It's gonna be an emotional time for Obama, whether or not he wins. Hopefully he does win and somewhere out there she will watch and rejoice like all of us. Hang in there, Obama. My condolences go out to you and your family.
"During the first nine months of 2008, Democratic registration in Whittier increased to 17,886, while Republicans have gained a mere 88 for a total of 15,247, according to the latest numbers from the Los Angeles County Registrar-Recorder/County Clerk's Office."An impressive accomplishment. The Whittier Republicans even go as far as blaming the Dem's for being "too aggressive"
Selma Minerd, who runs the Whittier Republican Headquarters, said part of the problem could be that Democrats are more aggressively registering voters.Of course, that isn't true at all. The reason we are seeing so many people voting Democrat here in Whittier is because for the first-time the youthful generation feels compelled to go out and vote. They need affordable health-care. They need help paying off their tuition. They are sick of paying so many taxes while the richer and more fortunate enjoy leisurely tax-breaks. They are tired of Bush's policies that McCain is set to adopt. They care about people's freedoms remaining intact and are tired of being dug into such a sink-hole while the GOP pushes us further down and strips people of liberties that we as humans are all entitled to.